I was wondering about love today. You know, that thing that goes with marriage like the horse with the carriage…
Pilosophers have been debating this four letter word forever. Its Hebrew form has a three-letter-root: Aleph, Hey, Bet. Aleph is the number one, Bet two and Hey five. This teaches us that if Aleph represents the individual ego, to get to Bet (the duo) – the Five, which in my mind is G-d – is needed. There can be no love without surrendering to something higher, something more elevated than the both of you together.
I don't have the profoundest definition of love; I don't even want it. But I am trying to see what meshes those four little letters to the big M, at least for me, because (as my sweet Daniel always says), it's all about me.
I never really thought I'd get married. There were always girls talking about it as we were blossoming into fine young women, but it just didn't seem a realistic option for me.
I've been pretty pessimistic for much of life; I even spent my later years dating pessimistic guys. Hence there had been no love, at least, not in any healthy way…
And then I met Daniel. "Delicious Daniel" as I'd named the folder in my email where I've saved all his romantic cyber notes. Daniel who's always smiling; always happy; always optimistic; always finding something else in life to enjoy rather than battle.
Despite my neuroses and major searches, I was unable to find anything "demonic" about Daniel. He was the first guy I'd ever met who didn't feel the world – or G-d – owed him anything; who didn't expect things but just tried to live life to the full.
He's done bungee-jumping, paragliding, skiing. The extent of my dangerous activity is the odd-glass of aspartame-rich diet coke and a few cups of decaffeinated coffee a day.
We're an interesting combination: he's relaxed, I'm neurotic. He has a totally unhealthy diet; I drink carrot soup. He's optimistic, I'm the head of the "what if?" gang. So we're hardly two peas in a pod. But that's where G-d comes in. G-d saw the two of us and we opened ourselves up for Him to come in. G-d took us easily from the dating to the love stage (and we're en route to the marriage). G-d said "For you guys to get from one to two, I'll have to sit in between and keep one eye on each of you."
And for that, G-d, I want to truly thank You. For being in our relationship from the very first moment and for still shining down upon us now. Thank You for Your abundant blessings and for creating this incredible love.
Emma